hm, this will be a picture dump entry so you have been warned! so it started with me packing to go travel up north and to drop off that painting i did as a commission but i wasnt going to meet the guy until xmas day where i would travel up to the lakes. anyways it was a nice travel back. i had to wake up at 530am to get back into town for my first appointment at the car shop. because there was no one there to pick me up i sat and waited outside of the shop for the guys to finish my car and luckily there was no other customers there so it only took them 30 minutes to do everything to my car~ but after that i had to drop of my cat at someones house (she was still taking her pills then since she had a bladder infection so i couldnt leave her home) and went to my next appointment,,.,.the dentist (*-*).,,.after a quick visit and such i had to make another appointment to get one of my teeth filled since it's been bothering me for a little over 4 months now lol afterwards i went out with my dad to get his fiance some gifts before xmas and everything and he bought some really random stuff for her (@~@).,,.i guess ppl do weird things when they are in love huh? and finally got some really good chinese food,,.,.i bout died of happiness overload from the food.,.,its was sooo goooooood <333 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEieQjIVMrrxi5kptwUQQ5if90I7d8Gf7p69GPuzJqcSUrghwSHqu1duXpDRFn0QQcQ9bQCkAaKDpTVjQXzArUnJa1mquTvuV_cGDGgLPNoUflIMHTcnA8TGmrw4K9hU_vn_Sb6yyCUQg5U/s1600-h/1223091619.jpg"> i believe after that i just visited my doggy for awhile since i havent seen her in months,.,.shes getting so old and then i realized that she's like 7-8 years old already (T^T), i really hope i can find a place where i can have dogs in my apartment, i truly do miss her a lot <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhfNwqCT5p-LrZyqonPO8ARLbs4BYCqTkTneNDFvoUPWHnoBbz2-XSVlX6CeHgDXpRE6RjClDTwe_bY6TjM6Q31gFn7RYTrG3upj5RGXiDS1oZTdPCs0mL6YzmFOVCnGo27m_2sCXjElOg/s1600-h/1229090055a.jpg"> i crashed at someones house for the night on the couch, but i didnt get that much sleep. the next i went out to the mall and did a little shopping and holy hell, there were sooo many ppl (*_*),,.course i forget it was xmas eve then lol~ and while i was walking i think of my bags just tapped this one girl i walked by and i heard her yelling outloud, "did that girl try to jump me?! did that girl try to JUMP ME!?!" ,.,,.ive never thought some little immature girl would try to beat someone up when you just accidently tap them with one of your bags. uggghhh children these days XD! also i really hate waiting in long lines (=_=) after that long day of walking around in the mall i decided to visit my mom at her new house and crash on her couch XD. i didnt expect to do much but then i remembered i had to go to my dad's family's xmas eve party thing? we did the usual and i won a couple bucks and stuff, but nothign out of the ordinary. it was boring and i crochet most of the night there lol until i became tired and went back to my moms house to sleep (but really i didnt get any sleep with her cat and my cat playing all night) this is how far i am on making my scarf (^^) so on xmas day i had to stay at my moms to celebrate it with her and she bought me some really comfy clothes and stuff and i cant stop wearing them,..,so nice and warm <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHeuRCc8psk7LyyMx5cnoh2fqS0uurs1ivovnXTJNeO-nuBjsCBvXINjOzq40IEMd9pvyaohHRvq5zu9-mFbiC0jbPw0S4aH1s75VXvHHNzNC7RsmjIbuYyoIZ0tr_OjOLba1de8wrsMU/s1600-h/1225091329.jpg"> so after my moms house i had to go over to another persons house and i recieved a gift from her <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgK2eJ7C6wpEVSBx0fvENNdeyC4W002wpdxrGjF1_iFYVZopHqm9AGFvcXAjMM99kL6vXfhtPjeL-Xydb_y3TJJ7D9bc8go_vANNhYSWRW-kgj5W5h2pIvEAW9tQdjlSjXRnDarbPwxh1k/s1600-h/1225091909.jpg"> next day after xmas day i went back out to the mall to do some more shopping since a lot of things were on sale and i was in the mood to go clothes shopping XD and i bought a lot (*-*) like a lot hahha~ and surprisingly there wasnt a lot of ppl out,.,..course i went to those early bird special deals? and of course they still had all the xmas decorations up~~ i really love all the tops i found on sale and i really went crazy in buying a lot bras and panties XD i couldnt resist when they are on sale for less than $4!!!i think that day was kinda nice out since i rained and there was no snow on the ground lol <3>,<)\ oh did i mention i had to take a family portrait with my mom and brother? yea i did that, i wasnt happy about it since i really dont like how my hair looks right now. my dad told me that if i let my hair grow out he will treat me with a nice salon visit to do my hair (mostly get it dyed professionally lol) so i was stuck up north due to the weather and it sucked, i had to find another couch to sleep on and then attempt to go back to the city to my lovely apartment <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUs6lkG11G9l-OwS7g67uwC7j0gbcL54evyZ7nEhOtZVM12ADTjCroXQ7txftdv-0INY3LyuYa1eGio42qeb4GtmpSZYJKosBttT-uocVLy5EoCKO15E-GN_l7WBkBo7tykCTbZlySn5E/s1600-h/1228091222.jpg"> anyways i was away from my apartment for almost a week,..,and it sucked living from my bags that i used to travel with lol. i havent slept in a bed for a long time now and i cant wait to sleep in mine tonight <3 (^/////^) oh also,,..,.,i couldnt help but buy a lot of hair products either XD.,.,,.,.this bag was only half full and now when i came back home.,.,i couldnt even snap the bag shut from all the products buwahahha!!! anyways i think thats about it ,.,.,.(^^)y that was my long picture entry and it ws nice traveling and im glad to be back home in my own room/bed/apartment. i like traveling but i hate being away for so long!!! (T0T) i hope everyone got what they wanted for xmas!! happy holiday~

here's a preview of the next video.,,.,.can you guess who it is !?!? (*^w^*) this style was requested over a year ago, so it's long over due to make it huh? anyways since my hair is long enough to do it, id figure i might as well do it before i go home for 4 days.,.,of no internet!!! WAHHH!!! but then my camera's battery died when i was almost finished,.,.so now im waiting for the battery to recharge and finish this tutorial lol. i just needed like.,.,,.5 more minutes to make it look nice ya know!?!?! i need to figure out what kind of music to put to this video since i dont have any of their music,..,sad i know right?? anyways i hope people will like this videos!! i even attempted to do his make-up which is an epic fail in my books,..,i suck at applying make-up.,.,.for reals!!!

DONE COMPLETE FINISH!!!!!!!

i finally finished that huge painting today! ah it felt so good.,,.and when i made my friend hold it up it just looked so,.,.,.,.wonderful XD. i was in aw that i painted it! seriously i have improved A LOT in my painting skillz dahaha looks like i didnt do it but someone else did, i guess im still in shock that i did it \(^o^)/ too bad that the person who wanted me to paint it being a big dick about it and wont make any deal about the price on it,.,.,.sadly hes older than me, but is being a big baby. (=_=) now i have to drive up north with this big ass painting just to show it to him to reach SOME agreement on the price. dammmmnn but now i can say that the joker was in the back seat of my car hahah! i also started crocheting my scarf,.,.,.its going to take forever to finish it, but it will give me something to do during the time i spend back home with my family (because they have no internet and i have nothing left at my parents home so i just sit around doing nothing lol) hope everyone is having a good time during their breaks and i hope to make a couple hair tutorials for you in january~!!

Scarf making time

my friend taught me how to crochet because i was watching her make a huge blanket. so i learned how to make the basic stitch and started a scarf to see if i did it right lol. she said i picked it up fast and was doing it right. now i want to make a huge scarf like ren has in nana XD. i want it white and some design on it (*w*),.,.,.oh god im so lame to think that XDD...,.,thats what i want to be doing over xmas eve/day lol i find it really relaxing but it really hurts my hands (T-T). my hands are not in the greatest of shape to do something that intensive in a long amount of time. and so fun!! she even gave me this hat she made too XP her sister said i look like stoner with it on buwahah

(@~@)

i sure do complain a lot on this blog,..,i should make this a more positive blog that ppl will enjoy reading huh?? (someone asked me to do an 'emo' hairstyle ,..,,.never worn soo much black eyeliner underneath my eyes in ages!)

Problem Problem Problem

i was texting the guy who wanted me to do this painting today. texting you ask? yea i know so unprofessional right? but thats how he got in contact with me. anyways i was showing him how far i have gotten on the piece and told him that i roughly wanted $500 for it. he spat out that it was way too much. first off how do ppl expect artists to live on their art work if they dont make some profit for it. if he was expecting $100 for it then i would only make a $10 profit just off the art supplies and thats not including any labor into it. i know a lot of fine arts ppl and i already talked to them about paintings and shiz since they mostly do that kind of stuff and i told them $200 was my original price and they said that i was selling it for really cheap and selling myself short,.,.,..,uh ok?? and they basically work two jobs and on commissions to make ends meet. if their galleries are a bust then they are out in a lot of money. i even talked to my roommate who is a fine arts major and showed her everything and how much everything cost and she that just the size alone would be $200-300 easy, then the labor put into it. (and thats basically what they all said to me too when i explained what i had to do) i never worked on a big piece like this,.,.,,.and i really hate painting,.,..,i know how to charge for making clothes easily since thats what i do now, but painting at this scale i dunno? i dont want to continue to waste my time if i cant sell this damn thing.,.,.,its about half way done.,,.,.just the lips and little details need to be added and it will be done. i dont want to sell myself short nor do i want to lose my customer and im working really hard on this painting (even though i basically bitch and complain the whole time i do it,..,,.painting is not my thing) the only reason im making it the best i can make it so if someone sees that painting and ask who had done it.,,.then my name will get out there,..,.,sadly for painting not clothing (T-T) ahhhhh either way im putting away the brushes until he answers me back what his pricing would be,.,..,i would settle for $350.,,.,.but i do have bills to pay food that needs to be bought.,.,., (why i always end up going friends houses so i can eat a nice meal there) XDD

Fail

i wanted to practice styling my hair for some up coming videos and it was a total fail (*-*) its been so long since i spiked up my hair. and just recently (like 5 days ago) i went out to get my hair thinned out and trimmed. sadly the lady blunt cut my layers and touched my bangs when i stated do not touch the bangs, ill clean them up on my own. HOE, no tip for her.,.,,XDD i kid, but she only charged me $10 so i was happy i saved like $5. anyways my layers are getting to long (=_=) but i dont want to cut it because i want to prove to a lot of ppl that i can stop cutting my hair! so i need to hurry and do a lot of those tutorials that ppl have requested (*~*) in other news the painting is going pretty well. there's a lot more i need to do , but i cant sit on my ass for hours while painting that huge canvas on the floor (=_=) either way it will get done soon! hopefully by the end of this week and then i can collect my money ($ w $)!! then i can start making everyones xmas gifts <33 ok its not rush hour now..,i should go get food and continue to work on that painting.,.,,.and styling my hair XD

Mocking Me

since break i started working on my first commission this break. its a painting of the joker. so far,.,.im only that far XD,.,.and ive only been working on it for two days. sadly i dont think i can finish it this week ,,,..,i feel so frustrated with it only because i hate HATE painting, but its the thought of money in my bank that makes me continue with it. oh joker why must your face be sooo detailed (*_*) mind you this painting is decently big (3ft x 3ft)

5th semester complete

yay im done!! today wasnt that bad and i slept in the tv room after my psychology test until my illustration class. it was the best sleep ever until this girl was laughing so loud it woke my ass up,.,.,.(=_=)^ anyways im done and ready to sleep, go out, sleep, eat, and work on my commissions to make some money (*^^*)b also my friend ordered me a vivienne westwood armor ring (its not authentic i believe) and it came in the mail today.,,..,i was so surprised because i didnt know she ordered it for me since i only talked about it and such thank you sooooo much <3333 a perfect way to end the semester~

*twitch*

for the past two days i have only slept a total of 7 hours,.,.im sure it would be like 20-30 minutes more since i dozed off during those long ass critiques lol but honestly this is the first time i have done this in the 3 year career of attending my college,..,.,i dont know how ppl do it.,.,lack of sleep (*-*) is sooo.,.,i dunno (@~@) i feel nauseous, sick, eyes wanting to pop out, tired tired little person tomorrow is my last day and i cannot wait to come home after illustration and sllllllllleeeeppp all wednesday evening and thursday morning/afternoon,..,.,you have no idea (=_=) i was debating whether or not to cook myself a real meal that doesnt consist of cheap lunchables.,,.yes,.,..,ive been eating those,.,.,.all of last week and this week,..,,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,,i really like the ham and cheddar combination XDD,..,,.,..,,.or to shower/eat..,.,or just crash and forget everything so far sleeping sounds sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good right now hahhaha,.,..,the only thing keeping me alive are those icy showers i take to wake me up XDD now to study for psychology!!!! good luck to everyone else who are taking finals or soon to go into finals week~~~

3 more days!

im in love with this man here, sujk from deluhi <33 XD, ive notice i have taking a liking to a lot of the drummers of each band puwahahhahah i finally fixed my Lacie (my external hard drive) i about lost it when it died on me (*-*), years of projects, papers, pictures, random stuff on there was lost for only a couple of days. Im glad to have it back <3>,<), i took some time on friday night to clean my apartment but not my room, only because it took forever to clean everything and next thing i knew it was already 12am,.,..,and plus having some friends randomly come over didnt help either. in my defense they needed someone to talk to all friday night/saturday morning i attempted to homework, then all day saturday i did homework and all day today i do homework and study for my exam tomorrow. i have to go in early to take it since this one girl i have class with in anatomy and psychology says that its stupid to have two final exams on the same day (we have psychology and then right after anatomy) so she convinced our anatomy teacher to let us take the exam earlier. im not complaining, but i did kind get dragged into the situation. so i have all final projects due each day (mon-wed then im done hahahah) and exams each day i hope i do well on all my exams (*-*) i was also offered like,..,,.3 commission just in december,.,.,.there goes my break (T^T), but i could use,,.actually need the money XDD,.,.,art is too expensive guys!!! ANYWAYS,.,.,.,.that's it,,..,i slept in today, i had no morning but it was such a nice sleep.,.,i want to sleep for until next semester starts when i get off from class. (^^;) im so exhausted i need more sleep (=_=)

Cherry Kisses

i finished one out of three projects and still need to study for three exams i cannot wait till these next two weeks are over with!!! anyways i made this dress for draping class. it was fun, hard work and i call it cherry kisses. it's really cute and i made my mom wear it XD, she fits perfectly in it, except the bust. i thought to myself, damn i need to weigh 100 pounds to fit in this (*-*) anyways i kinda want to sell it since this isnt my style, but this is my design that i made for class that i really love. it's so cute!! but i cant fit in it (T-T),.,.,.maybe i should start losing weight so i can at least wear it once lol this is totally out of my norm for designing clothes, but i made it up with my pattern final. i made a pair of pants like these, but a different kind of material since i couldnt find what looks like the right kind of fabric. i didnt put any pockets on it just yet and im still debating whether to put them on or not.hopefully it turns out alright in the end! i only have one more week to work on it~~~

i'm always the girl with the multicolored hair. everyone was disappointed on how,..,,.normal i looked at my friends birthday party back home. i told them just a couple years looking normal com'on guys!! their response,,..,.,no.,.,i ,.,.i cant see you looking that normal *sigh* my plan of action for the next year is to let my hair go,.,.,.let it become long like i once had in middle school .,,.god has it been that long since i had hair past my shoulders!?! then hopefully get it colored like waka's hair from danger gang XDD simple, not a lot of touch ups that needs to happen and i think i can manage the coloring lol towards the end of summer break ill get it colored professionally and hopefully by that time my hair will be looooong,..,.,or just long in general buwahahah!

Lack of Sleep Makes You Feel Awesome!

ah i hate feeling like shiiiit. woke up this morning all blargh (=_=). im not sick or anything. i think my body has caught up with me and is too exhausted to go on. 3 more weeks! that's all im asking for and then you can take a month off relaxing (T~T),.,.,.break needs to come faster!! this is the first year that ive worked soo hard for all my classes. i dont wanna go into senior year (X-X).,,.,.,.i should sleep, but first is my 5 page paper for anatomy, due friday at 12:30pm.,,.,.i can do this!!! (>.<)O .,.,has anyone else notice all the christmas decorations everywhere?? even on television??? ,..,,.thanksgiving is the forgotten holiday for marketing lol

Grow up please <3

i'm sorry but i can't stand talking to some individuals who cant comprehend the fact that college is more difficult that high school or middle school, that college students dont have that much free time to go out and do absolutely nothing and the fact that our projects takes weeks!!! to finish properly. because you can tell when something was made up the night before.,.,,just sloppy as fuck and no love in it rawr!! why do i talk to these people?? 6 years younger than me??? who think that they will marry their damn bf's when they turn 18 and love each other forever and ever imbeciles, immature idiots,.,.,.,. go through puberty and reach my age and then we can talk~~ *sigh* i feel better now

i cant write this paper, it's too hard. not even a page (no double space mind you) and im already tearing up. i need an interesting life so i can write about something else (^^;) but this five page paper is due on wednesday at 11am, need to get it done tonight!

in my psychology class we have to write a paper about ourselves and an experience that has influenced us in a negative/positive or even both.,,.ways. i thought of doing various things, but i found that i can't type up so many pages on that even in my life,,.sadly (^^;).,,.., then i thought about my parents divorce.,.,,.8 years ago i believe? it was on xmas eve when it was decided. i was trying to recall everything that had happened and how it effected my life,.,.,.and when i started to think about it just randomly.,,..,my eyes were full of tears.,.,and they kept pouring out. i didnt realize how much i was effected by it.,,.by just remembering some things from those nights and every night that followed until i moved out on my own. it's weird,.,.well i think it is (^^;),.,.,.i guess i kept all those emotions bottled up from everyone else since none of my friends had divorce parents at the time i was in elementary/middle/ or even high school.,.,.,., my god.,.,.,elementary school was when it happened.,.,i forgot about that,.,., i still find it weird,.,.there was no one to blame.,,.and i still have wonderful relationships with both my parents, so after i blotted up my tears i asked,.,.why am i crying like this?? im thinking about writing a different event in my life or else my laptop will fry from all these random tears that are coming out.,.,.,but the paper is due in a couple days.,.,., such a pitiful girl i am

Fixed His Mistake

after fixing my advisor's mistake i got the schedule i kinda wanted (*^^*) i was thinking about doing 18 credited hours, but for now it's 15. i need to look into summer classes (*~*) Monday: 3:30-6:20pm - Advance Pattern Making Tuesday: 8:00-10:50am - Surface Design 11:00-12:20pm - Writing Fiction Wednesday: i will die on this day many of times (@~@) 8:00-10:50am - Portrait Drawin 11:00-12:20pm - History of Illustration 12:30- 3:20pm - Specialty Construction 3:30-6:20pm - Illustration/Layout (see what i mean? back to back classes with no breaks!) Thursday: 11:00-12:20pm - Writing Fiction Friday: 8:00-10:50am - Portrait Drawing 11:00-12:20pm - History of Illustration my schedule is packed, but in a way relaxing since i get out early on 3 days instead of just1, but totally over-booked myself on wednesday.,.,.,,.,.,.,.ahhh!!!! (>o<)O

His name is Tucker

that's tucker,,.he was walking around the pet store i went to just to hold rabbits,.,.since my bunny doesn't allow me to pick her up (^////^). he was huge~ i went to a store to sell some of my manga but since they only offered me $18 for 20 odd mangas (original print and great condition) and a few old novels i dont read anymore,.,.i said screw it and took them all back.,.,i dont know what to do with them and i need some extra money (T-T). but after that big scam i went to a japanese gift shop and grocery store to buy some stuff like rilakkuma and instant curry and rice so i dont have to cook XDD. lucky me everything was on sale, but you had to fight through all the asians to get what you wanted. least they were my height buwahah!! sadly when i was walking to the store i wished i was full asian or at least full white. i honestly dont have many asian friends, since to them im too americanized and not asian enough for them. and when i hang out with my caucasian friends they dont understand what its like to be a hapa. they say that they are a mix of different races but they are still considered caucasian. anyways when i was at a book store i found a book full of hapa's stories and they are really encourage and insight to see that im not the only one that feels like im too white/asian in certain situations. i feel enlighted and inspired. next semester i have a full schedule which will drain me from sleep (T-T) but i have to do this so i can graduate and finish on time.,.,.,.must get it done!! i hope you guys liked my video i posted recently. i did that one night after seeing a lot of gurus making halloween make up and i wanted to test out my new camera i got. sadly it kept turning everything orange and i had to go get it fixed (T-T). so i just edited what i had. that's why i didnt use a well light room because everything was orange (@~@). ill do hair tutorials next year, these last few month ill try to do make up tutorials you have requested <3. please wait for me (*^^*)y

After Midterms Party

it was a halloween party. i had helped with costume designs and construction for a few and did a handful of people's make up and hair. their hair and make up turned out really nice (*w*) and received a lot of compliments~ though they had me scrambling and rushing to do everyone's hair and make up since they waited an hour before the party. so i was last to get ready, but i didn't have to worry about my hair since i had a wig XD. it was a great way to relieve myself after a full weeks worth of studying and projects. i don't know how you people can study so much for your classes, but i can't do it anymore (*-*). i just want to make things XD. i didn't get drunk nor did i get a buzz. i paced myself, but around 1am i was just so tired that i just went and took a shower and get out of my costume. after that there was a lot of dry humping, shot gun races, beer drinking and dancing to a mix of songs. it lasted till early in the morning.,,.i think around 6? but i went to bed early since i planned on going to the mall to do my research of different retail stores. overall it was nice~ i bought a new purse (finally) and did a lot of research in the stores. i wish i could've taken pictures of their clothes to do the flats, but of course,.,.,.not allowed (T-T). all i can say is that this weekend was the most relaxing/enjoyable weekend i had in the last 2 months (=^,^=)m

Uberly Piss

so other than i basically bombed my history exam,..,because of that damn instructor what is also my draping instructor. reason: she gives us a review through email,.,.20 questions,.,.none of it was on the damn test. she also doesn't know a lot of shit either,.,.she had to look at stuff before she explains she's air headed she got lectured by a student about one designer she can't teach and there is NO WAY that someone can remember all those different garments through 4 different time periods and where the waist started, what kind of sleeves they have, neck like, different coats worn by men,..,and everything inbetween! for me i need like a month to remember everything,.,.,.or even more,..,but damn! my only exam so far that i know i failed.,.,,.,. and also! group project for illustration class one girl did inspiration board one girl did flats and i did the illustration the flats girl worried more about my illustration than her damn part of the project and basically made it into her project, not the group project. she didnt even finish the project and was mounting and wrapping the project and then she made her piece the wrong size,.,.wtf!!! she told us the size it has to be and she fucked up the size on her part??? we were the only group that was ripped apart during critique,,.and you dont know how pissed i was afterwards,..,.,FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! also that was a little drawing i did instead of drawing the model,..,,.i wanted to hurt her sooo badly why must i have please everyone.,,.you can't make everyone happy.,,.and i can't tell ppl off.., i'm such a softy (=_=)

i skipped my surface design class to study for my history of fashion exam. either way i feel like i'm going to fail. who could possibly remember all the different styles of coats/sleeves/dresses of at least 200 years!!?!?! i could care less (>,<)O stupid class i tell you!

i cut the bangs, but not the length XD so lame,..,i should study now

Do I Look Good as a Blond?

you tell me XDD my bou cosplay is complete now,.,.,.after i cut and style the wig :B

I Can't Give Up!!

ok, that fat cunt sucking cow made me re-drape all these different skirts!!! ugh! story: our homework was to drape different flared skirt variations in one week. One at center front One on side seam One at center panel with one back to one of the above and one with pleats or gathering incorporated with the design so i did all of that right? and i did a gathering piece for center front and added the back to it. along with side seam and center panel. so i did all of the homework right!? yes.,.,yes i did well when i showed her one,.,.she looked at it and then she told me to redo the center front, to redo the back and add it to a different part of the skirt (like add it to side seam or at center panel) AND! to do another center front with pleats or gather,.,.,.,. ZOMG! i was the only one that had to do this!!!!! (>,<)O FUCK! so i had to redo do all those pieces instead of working on my homework (which everyone else was doing) and i rushed and showed her all the new pieces i made. thankfully she gave me a check for them, but FUCK! i had to do all those within 2 and half hours with everything cut out, marked, pinned together, and matching the other pieces. .,.,,.i truely hate tuesday.,.,.,,.,. and i swear that woman does not like me (=_=),..,

Does this happen to you?

i'll make a great waiter~ anyways, i dont know if this happens to you or not, but it has been recently basically it's when someone judges you and the person who you make like. they say "really!?!" "they're not that good looking" or they go one and point out flaws that THEY see, and not you. you know, it's not like your friend has to like them as well right? it's stupid and because i'm such a pushover i don't say anything about the person they may have a crush on. ugh, i thought 'friends' were supportive? whatever, it's annoying and i hate it. don't judge me for who i like and i wont judge you or your crush for that matter. we all have our own preferences and we don't have to like the same thing in a person or anything else. anyways, there is a convention coming up this weekend and i'm going to go or not. just depends on how much homework i can get done before the weekend (^^;)

I Miss You So

i'm trying not to do my hair this year, but sometimes i feel as it just looks better when it is (^^;). after thinking it out and then measuring and calculating, my hair will grow 5 inches by august of 2010,..,,.holy shiz!! perfect length~,.., my hair will be somewhat long by winter break and im wondering which tutorial to attempt?? im thinking byou from screw or even uruha from gazette, but it just depends on the hair situation lol. lately i've been living at fashion building. one day i stayed in that building for 13 hours (*~*) with only an hour and a half break. i had classes from 8am-620pm.,..,then right after class i went into the dye lab to dye my fabric, which takes 2 hours plus cleaning and such. on thursday, when i have no classes, i went back to the fashion building to do more homework. that day i stayed there from 10am-330pm. i love friday~ it's the only time i get to spend time with my friends~ sadly they are not in fashion and we never get to see each other. when talking to them today i felt like we were strangers because we havent seen each other in such a long time, so it was kinda akward (T_T). i truely miss my friends! i want to go back to freshman year and hang out in the dorms again!! i have no friends in fashion except a few, but those are the ones where i will talk to them but never hang out with after school is out. sad, but true. (T-T) ah! maybe tomorrow i go watch a friend get her haircut, but that would just provoke me (^^;) stay strong! and stop talking about it XD .,,.,.i really want to make a video,.,..,.,but not a tutorial but a 'what do i use for my tutorial' video and different techniques ya know? i try to answer everyones question but they are all the same and i just end up repeating myself (T-T).,,.,.maybe ill do that tonight? i dunno,..,,.im just tired of homework and projects taking over my life!!! (>,<) ..,.,.,plus i want to play with my camera XDD,.,..,,.

More Hair Pictures, ZOMG i have a problem

my goal is to grow out my hair and get it cut like hiko's from danger gang or even aoi's from the gazette,..,., either way, they're both the same style and all i have to do is not go to a salon for a long ass time XDD,.,.,.ahh!! i have a horrible obsession with hair (=_=),.,.i should have gone to cosmetology school instead of art school XDD!! i hope this week i wont have a lot of homework (=_=) now that i'm done with exams for a couple weeks i can focus on my art projects and hopefully create some good piece to put in my portfolio (*^^*)v i want to make another cosplay outfit!,..,i want to make so many (=_=) but i want to make something that aoi has worn X0DD it's been almost a month since i have ordered that wig for my bou cosplay and it still hasn't came in the mail yet,.,..,bahh i wanted to wear that outfit for this halloween party XDD.,.lame!!! back to work!