this weekend i went to this convention called ohayocon~ it was really fun and i had a blast!! i didnt take a lot of pictures this year for some reason? but either way it was nice to get away and able to dress up. i wish i had another outfit to wear other than my bou cosplay, but i got my picture taken a lot,..,and a lot of hugs (>.<) which i did not like at all. sorry but i dislike hugging lol (^^;). anyways a few youtube fans found me and we talked for a bit hahaah~ im surprised they recognized me (*-*), but im happy to meet you guys! sorry teddie for not being able to do your hair (T^T) i got to the convention a lot later than expected,.,.sorry!!! next time i will ok?? the dealers room was really disappointing,.,.,.they didnt have the cure stand, so they lacked the jrock goodness, so i was really sad. instead i just bought rilakkuma bears and a gloomy bear hahah!!! i also made a friend there too~ she was a big gazette fan so we talked and hung out for two days. i told her i want to cosplay as uruha next year and she got excited XDDD~,..,.,a lot happened, but i dont feel like typing it all out. i cant wait for the summer months to make another cosplay hahah and to get my hair done professionally (*^^*)

this magazine (even though its reflected) is called threads. its only publishes once in a great while, but they have all these tricks to help you make the garments/patterns better than what they were. a lot of the fashion ppl always talk about it so i picked up a copy while i was at the store. it was a last minute purchase (like when you buy candy while waiting at in line) but it was a good purchase. it's very informative. i think i'll continue to read and learn more~

i also bought a very girly magazine, but i can't remember the name of it. anyways the only headline that made me buy it was, along the lines of, how to get long locks fast! SOLD! anyways i bought it and it's basically giving me all the information i already knew about (T~T). ah thank god it was cheap~  anyways,,..,i want a new piercing and everyone was saying eyebrow and i even had a dream about that. but i havent decided yet about what to get or when (*-*). OH! also convention this weekend!! yay! i get to wear my bou's cosplay without it smelling like alcohol XDDD. oh costume parties are always fun (*^^*)~

put on a smile so no one thinks youre sad~ even though ive only attended classes for two days now, i feel like i want to give up already. i had signed up for a lot of classes that have nothing to do with fashion and still kept some fashion classes. why you ask? its required to take classes outside of our majors to become a more well rounded person per say. with these new classes they have already discriminated me just because i am in fashion. as if all the ppl that are in fashion do not belong in a writing class or a portrait class or a history class that is for illustrators (hey i wanted to go into illustration originally!!). i already had my portrait instructor question why i am in a class for animation/illustrators and basically said that he wants to have a talk with me for my reasoning for signing up for the class. in writing.,.,,.the teacher could tell since i sat in a corner by myself. and every other class,..,.,i just feel like they all hate me. and i already dislike my fashion instructors so this year is a no win for me AT ALL!!! (>,<) i feel no passion to continue with fashion or to do anything of that sort. i see my illustration friends drawing all the time, i see those animation ppl doing sketches of scenes and there i sit across from them bitching and whining about how i hate my classes...,,.,.i have no interest, no passion anymore for it. i just want to give up now. i feel that after taking those three semesters of ppl bashing me, stereotyping me, hating me (mostly the fashion girls since im too different from them), and having no friends in my major that i can just flat out tell everything to (gotta watch out for myself..,.,those bitches are really rude) i ,.,..,just ,.,..,,.want to quit.,.,,.end of story,..,,..,

sometimes i honestly do wonder if i have a true friend here. a friend who i can rely on more than others. a friend who will always be there. a friend who will listen and may not understand. not the friends that i hardly see, but when we do, we will just catch up, or just have fun all the time. not the friend that may not share every interest of yours, but is still nice to sit down and talk about other things in life.,..,.,.,.,sometimes i wonder if my friends are better than my true friend. i treat all my friends the same. i treat them with all the love i can give, but it seems that some,.,.very few will take advantage of my hospitality. sadly..,i know that they are doing so, but when i hear that they talk shit about me, makes me feel like donkey shit. after all that time and love and care and myself i give to them, they still talk shit and act all innocent and make me seem like the bad guy. i try to make everyone happy, but in the end i know i've had cause someone some pain and then make the other one feel better about themselves. i just cant win. i just cant make everyone happy, but i really want to. either one is jealous or one is hurt. argghh why must everyone make something simple so complicated. or maybe just one person do all the damage. i feel horrible about some things and i wish i could take some back, but in all honestly i cannot hurt anyone. because i do not like being hurt myself. ok i think that sums up how i feel about the situation i am in.

i started practicing uruha's hair style,.,.i made it close to it, but not exact,.,.some pictures differ from others. like how poofy it is on top or how thick the strands that are flipped out are.,,.,.OR even how curled they are in comparison to other pictures. i attempted to do his makeup a second time as well,.,.,.that took me forever!! (=_=) since i have lids and all (^^;) but after all that hassle and junk, i want to cosplay as him next!!! (its my excuse to have brown hair now lol ) i think it will be fun and someone wants to go as aoi with me (^^) if they back out they back out, but i will have a bad ass cosplay lol im more excited about this cosplay than bou's and i got pretty excited while making bou's lol so im really really excited folks!!!

im sorry. but i did not have fun at my friends bday get together. i was so bored that i left with someone and walked around the mall instead XDD!! and in the end i stayed over at my friends house because her mom told me to because of the snow. i had more fun playing the wii and walking around the mall. sorry, but they were all boring (~,~;) i like those winter coats that make you look uberly fat lol

i made this for my friends bday gift,..,it was last minute and i didnt know about the party till the last minute. hopefully she will like this. sadly i didnt really care for the details i put on it and its really sloppy, but hell i got it done!!!??? .,.,.,.,the picture makes it look better than what it really is XDD hopefully she will like it. if not i will take it away from her and give it to someone else!! hahah!!! XD

i can't decide what to wear!! girl drama ahh! im going out with one friend to the mall and bubble tea and a group of ppl the next day for a bday/movie/bubble tea gathering ahhh dunno (^^;) ,.,.,i wish i could just change outfits in the middle of the day type thing hahah~ to be girly one day and i don't give a damn the next?? or both or neither ahahah!! XD

my second family had a 'crafts' night and i learned a different crochet stitch. now i want to make a shirt with that technique hahaha~ i went home early that night so i could prepare myself for the next day, but i only slept for a couple hours sadly lol my friends and i went shopping for 7 hours plus.,,.,trying to conquer this two story,inside/outside mall. i didnt expect a lot of sales, but aslkdfjlasdkfja; they had really good sales!! (*w*) i bought new make up from sephora, clothes that were on sale, but reduced again at hot topic, but they seriously didnt have my size in almost everything (T^T) and of course at forever 21 did i mention i was beaten up by a dog? XDD

Happy New Years guy! i hope this year will bring you happiness and peace <3 i spent the final days of 2009 dying my hair and running around with my good friend lol. we basically went to the japanese market where i bought gatsby hi-bleaching kit and to hana gifts to look around lol and also spent new years eve watching the movie sherlock holmes in the theaters and going over to my 'second family's' house (*^^*) i hope this year i can achieve my resolution!! and i hope i can make really great videos for you guys~ someone has requested a complex make-up tutorial of hitsugi, but im afraid to attempt it XD,..,.who ever is his make-up artist i applaud them XDD and because im slowly letting my hair grow im going to attempt all the longer hair tutorials that ppl have requested months ago! i hope you guys are having a nice new years day!!