it has only been two weeks and i'm already stressing out! i don't think it's going to get any better from here. i want to quit XD. i want to just drop out of art school and do something else XDD. how awful is that?
when asking one of my instructors for help, since i'm still new at doing this whole fashion thing. she looked at what i was doing and then at me and said "you don't have the eye for this"
of course i'm not going to say anything, she's the one that determines if i pass or not, but holy shit!!!! i got sooo pissed. of course i don't have the 'eye' this is the first fucking time i'm doing this shit you fat fucking cunt sucking cow!!!!! (>,<)o,.,.,.excuse my language.
aren't instructors suppose to encourage the student and help them when they need help!?!?!
gah, such a horrible attitude!
later that day i slowly became depressed. i feel worthless (=_=). like i can't do anything anymore, i'm not cut out to be a designer. i just suck. i want to quit and just flip burgers until i die.
such a horrible feeling. i thought i would get over what she said since well, it was just her, but i can't!.,,.i never hold grudges, but when someone says such a thing and takes a stab at my ego, i just crumble. i'm really sensitive at those types of things (and yet i took up the profession where i will always be critized). i wanted to break down today when working on various projects, because i kept thinking about what she said. i joke about it when i tell other people, like how it's only the second week and how she could've waited until a good month to say such things. ,..,.,makes me want to cry.,.,..,and i almost did out of frustration and stressing out over all my projects
.,.,.,this year,.,..,,.is going to be a long ass year.,.,.,.,.,(T-T)v
Thursday, September 3, 2009
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it has only been two weeks and i'm already stressing out! i don't think it's going to get any better from here. i want to quit XD. i want to just drop out of art school and do something else XDD. how awful is that?
when asking one of my instructors for help, since i'm still new at doing this whole fashion thing. she looked at what i was doing and then at me and said "you don't have the eye for this"
of course i'm not going to say anything, she's the one that determines if i pass or not, but holy shit!!!! i got sooo pissed. of course i don't have the 'eye' this is the first fucking time i'm doing this shit you fat fucking cunt sucking cow!!!!! (>,<)o,.,.,.excuse my language.
aren't instructors suppose to encourage the student and help them when they need help!?!?!
gah, such a horrible attitude!
later that day i slowly became depressed. i feel worthless (=_=). like i can't do anything anymore, i'm not cut out to be a designer. i just suck. i want to quit and just flip burgers until i die.
such a horrible feeling. i thought i would get over what she said since well, it was just her, but i can't!.,,.i never hold grudges, but when someone says such a thing and takes a stab at my ego, i just crumble. i'm really sensitive at those types of things (and yet i took up the profession where i will always be critized). i wanted to break down today when working on various projects, because i kept thinking about what she said. i joke about it when i tell other people, like how it's only the second week and how she could've waited until a good month to say such things. ,..,.,makes me want to cry.,.,..,and i almost did out of frustration and stressing out over all my projects
.,.,.,this year,.,..,,.is going to be a long ass year.,.,.,.,.,(T-T)v
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She sounds horrible! I don't think teachers should be that way :( Why do they even get into the profession if they're not going to help people? You've posted stuff on here of clothes you've made and I think they're really good. Hope things start looking up for you.
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