this magazine (even though its reflected) is called threads. its only publishes once in a great while, but they have all these tricks to help you make the garments/patterns better than what they were. a lot of the fashion ppl always talk about it so i picked up a copy while i was at the store. it was a last minute purchase (like when you buy candy while waiting at in line) but it was a good purchase. it's very informative. i think i'll continue to read and learn more~

i also bought a very girly magazine, but i can't remember the name of it. anyways the only headline that made me buy it was, along the lines of, how to get long locks fast! SOLD! anyways i bought it and it's basically giving me all the information i already knew about (T~T). ah thank god it was cheap~  anyways,,..,i want a new piercing and everyone was saying eyebrow and i even had a dream about that. but i havent decided yet about what to get or when (*-*). OH! also convention this weekend!! yay! i get to wear my bou's cosplay without it smelling like alcohol XDDD. oh costume parties are always fun (*^^*)~

put on a smile so no one thinks youre sad~ even though ive only attended classes for two days now, i feel like i want to give up already. i had signed up for a lot of classes that have nothing to do with fashion and still kept some fashion classes. why you ask? its required to take classes outside of our majors to become a more well rounded person per say. with these new classes they have already discriminated me just because i am in fashion. as if all the ppl that are in fashion do not belong in a writing class or a portrait class or a history class that is for illustrators (hey i wanted to go into illustration originally!!). i already had my portrait instructor question why i am in a class for animation/illustrators and basically said that he wants to have a talk with me for my reasoning for signing up for the class. in writing.,.,,.the teacher could tell since i sat in a corner by myself. and every other class,..,.,i just feel like they all hate me. and i already dislike my fashion instructors so this year is a no win for me AT ALL!!! (>,<) i feel no passion to continue with fashion or to do anything of that sort. i see my illustration friends drawing all the time, i see those animation ppl doing sketches of scenes and there i sit across from them bitching and whining about how i hate my classes...,,.,.i have no interest, no passion anymore for it. i just want to give up now. i feel that after taking those three semesters of ppl bashing me, stereotyping me, hating me (mostly the fashion girls since im too different from them), and having no friends in my major that i can just flat out tell everything to (gotta watch out for myself..,.,those bitches are really rude) i ,.,..,just ,.,..,,.want to quit.,.,,.end of story,..,,..,

sometimes i honestly do wonder if i have a true friend here. a friend who i can rely on more than others. a friend who will always be there. a friend who will listen and may not understand. not the friends that i hardly see, but when we do, we will just catch up, or just have fun all the time. not the friend that may not share every interest of yours, but is still nice to sit down and talk about other things in life.,..,.,.,.,sometimes i wonder if my friends are better than my true friend. i treat all my friends the same. i treat them with all the love i can give, but it seems that some,.,.very few will take advantage of my hospitality. sadly..,i know that they are doing so, but when i hear that they talk shit about me, makes me feel like donkey shit. after all that time and love and care and myself i give to them, they still talk shit and act all innocent and make me seem like the bad guy. i try to make everyone happy, but in the end i know i've had cause someone some pain and then make the other one feel better about themselves. i just cant win. i just cant make everyone happy, but i really want to. either one is jealous or one is hurt. argghh why must everyone make something simple so complicated. or maybe just one person do all the damage. i feel horrible about some things and i wish i could take some back, but in all honestly i cannot hurt anyone. because i do not like being hurt myself. ok i think that sums up how i feel about the situation i am in.

i started practicing uruha's hair style,.,.i made it close to it, but not exact,.,.some pictures differ from others. like how poofy it is on top or how thick the strands that are flipped out are.,,.,.OR even how curled they are in comparison to other pictures. i attempted to do his makeup a second time as well,.,.,.that took me forever!! (=_=) since i have lids and all (^^;) but after all that hassle and junk, i want to cosplay as him next!!! (its my excuse to have brown hair now lol ) i think it will be fun and someone wants to go as aoi with me (^^) if they back out they back out, but i will have a bad ass cosplay lol im more excited about this cosplay than bou's and i got pretty excited while making bou's lol so im really really excited folks!!!

im sorry. but i did not have fun at my friends bday get together. i was so bored that i left with someone and walked around the mall instead XDD!! and in the end i stayed over at my friends house because her mom told me to because of the snow. i had more fun playing the wii and walking around the mall. sorry, but they were all boring (~,~;) i like those winter coats that make you look uberly fat lol

i made this for my friends bday gift,..,it was last minute and i didnt know about the party till the last minute. hopefully she will like this. sadly i didnt really care for the details i put on it and its really sloppy, but hell i got it done!!!??? .,.,.,.,the picture makes it look better than what it really is XDD hopefully she will like it. if not i will take it away from her and give it to someone else!! hahah!!! XD

i can't decide what to wear!! girl drama ahh! im going out with one friend to the mall and bubble tea and a group of ppl the next day for a bday/movie/bubble tea gathering ahhh dunno (^^;) ,.,.,i wish i could just change outfits in the middle of the day type thing hahah~ to be girly one day and i don't give a damn the next?? or both or neither ahahah!! XD

my second family had a 'crafts' night and i learned a different crochet stitch. now i want to make a shirt with that technique hahaha~ i went home early that night so i could prepare myself for the next day, but i only slept for a couple hours sadly lol my friends and i went shopping for 7 hours plus.,,.,trying to conquer this two story,inside/outside mall. i didnt expect a lot of sales, but aslkdfjlasdkfja; they had really good sales!! (*w*) i bought new make up from sephora, clothes that were on sale, but reduced again at hot topic, but they seriously didnt have my size in almost everything (T^T) and of course at forever 21 did i mention i was beaten up by a dog? XDD

Happy New Years guy! i hope this year will bring you happiness and peace <3 i spent the final days of 2009 dying my hair and running around with my good friend lol. we basically went to the japanese market where i bought gatsby hi-bleaching kit and to hana gifts to look around lol and also spent new years eve watching the movie sherlock holmes in the theaters and going over to my 'second family's' house (*^^*) i hope this year i can achieve my resolution!! and i hope i can make really great videos for you guys~ someone has requested a complex make-up tutorial of hitsugi, but im afraid to attempt it XD,..,.who ever is his make-up artist i applaud them XDD and because im slowly letting my hair grow im going to attempt all the longer hair tutorials that ppl have requested months ago! i hope you guys are having a nice new years day!!

hm, this will be a picture dump entry so you have been warned! so it started with me packing to go travel up north and to drop off that painting i did as a commission but i wasnt going to meet the guy until xmas day where i would travel up to the lakes. anyways it was a nice travel back. i had to wake up at 530am to get back into town for my first appointment at the car shop. because there was no one there to pick me up i sat and waited outside of the shop for the guys to finish my car and luckily there was no other customers there so it only took them 30 minutes to do everything to my car~ but after that i had to drop of my cat at someones house (she was still taking her pills then since she had a bladder infection so i couldnt leave her home) and went to my next appointment,,.,.the dentist (*-*).,,.after a quick visit and such i had to make another appointment to get one of my teeth filled since it's been bothering me for a little over 4 months now lol afterwards i went out with my dad to get his fiance some gifts before xmas and everything and he bought some really random stuff for her (@~@).,,.i guess ppl do weird things when they are in love huh? and finally got some really good chinese food,,.,.i bout died of happiness overload from the food.,.,its was sooo goooooood <333 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEieQjIVMrrxi5kptwUQQ5if90I7d8Gf7p69GPuzJqcSUrghwSHqu1duXpDRFn0QQcQ9bQCkAaKDpTVjQXzArUnJa1mquTvuV_cGDGgLPNoUflIMHTcnA8TGmrw4K9hU_vn_Sb6yyCUQg5U/s1600-h/1223091619.jpg"> i believe after that i just visited my doggy for awhile since i havent seen her in months,.,.shes getting so old and then i realized that she's like 7-8 years old already (T^T), i really hope i can find a place where i can have dogs in my apartment, i truly do miss her a lot <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhfNwqCT5p-LrZyqonPO8ARLbs4BYCqTkTneNDFvoUPWHnoBbz2-XSVlX6CeHgDXpRE6RjClDTwe_bY6TjM6Q31gFn7RYTrG3upj5RGXiDS1oZTdPCs0mL6YzmFOVCnGo27m_2sCXjElOg/s1600-h/1229090055a.jpg"> i crashed at someones house for the night on the couch, but i didnt get that much sleep. the next i went out to the mall and did a little shopping and holy hell, there were sooo many ppl (*_*),,.course i forget it was xmas eve then lol~ and while i was walking i think of my bags just tapped this one girl i walked by and i heard her yelling outloud, "did that girl try to jump me?! did that girl try to JUMP ME!?!" ,.,,.ive never thought some little immature girl would try to beat someone up when you just accidently tap them with one of your bags. uggghhh children these days XD! also i really hate waiting in long lines (=_=) after that long day of walking around in the mall i decided to visit my mom at her new house and crash on her couch XD. i didnt expect to do much but then i remembered i had to go to my dad's family's xmas eve party thing? we did the usual and i won a couple bucks and stuff, but nothign out of the ordinary. it was boring and i crochet most of the night there lol until i became tired and went back to my moms house to sleep (but really i didnt get any sleep with her cat and my cat playing all night) this is how far i am on making my scarf (^^) so on xmas day i had to stay at my moms to celebrate it with her and she bought me some really comfy clothes and stuff and i cant stop wearing them,..,so nice and warm <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHeuRCc8psk7LyyMx5cnoh2fqS0uurs1ivovnXTJNeO-nuBjsCBvXINjOzq40IEMd9pvyaohHRvq5zu9-mFbiC0jbPw0S4aH1s75VXvHHNzNC7RsmjIbuYyoIZ0tr_OjOLba1de8wrsMU/s1600-h/1225091329.jpg"> so after my moms house i had to go over to another persons house and i recieved a gift from her <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgK2eJ7C6wpEVSBx0fvENNdeyC4W002wpdxrGjF1_iFYVZopHqm9AGFvcXAjMM99kL6vXfhtPjeL-Xydb_y3TJJ7D9bc8go_vANNhYSWRW-kgj5W5h2pIvEAW9tQdjlSjXRnDarbPwxh1k/s1600-h/1225091909.jpg"> next day after xmas day i went back out to the mall to do some more shopping since a lot of things were on sale and i was in the mood to go clothes shopping XD and i bought a lot (*-*) like a lot hahha~ and surprisingly there wasnt a lot of ppl out,.,..course i went to those early bird special deals? and of course they still had all the xmas decorations up~~ i really love all the tops i found on sale and i really went crazy in buying a lot bras and panties XD i couldnt resist when they are on sale for less than $4!!!i think that day was kinda nice out since i rained and there was no snow on the ground lol <3>,<)\ oh did i mention i had to take a family portrait with my mom and brother? yea i did that, i wasnt happy about it since i really dont like how my hair looks right now. my dad told me that if i let my hair grow out he will treat me with a nice salon visit to do my hair (mostly get it dyed professionally lol) so i was stuck up north due to the weather and it sucked, i had to find another couch to sleep on and then attempt to go back to the city to my lovely apartment <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUs6lkG11G9l-OwS7g67uwC7j0gbcL54evyZ7nEhOtZVM12ADTjCroXQ7txftdv-0INY3LyuYa1eGio42qeb4GtmpSZYJKosBttT-uocVLy5EoCKO15E-GN_l7WBkBo7tykCTbZlySn5E/s1600-h/1228091222.jpg"> anyways i was away from my apartment for almost a week,..,and it sucked living from my bags that i used to travel with lol. i havent slept in a bed for a long time now and i cant wait to sleep in mine tonight <3 (^/////^) oh also,,..,.,i couldnt help but buy a lot of hair products either XD.,.,,.,.this bag was only half full and now when i came back home.,.,i couldnt even snap the bag shut from all the products buwahahha!!! anyways i think thats about it ,.,.,.(^^)y that was my long picture entry and it ws nice traveling and im glad to be back home in my own room/bed/apartment. i like traveling but i hate being away for so long!!! (T0T) i hope everyone got what they wanted for xmas!! happy holiday~

here's a preview of the next video.,,.,.can you guess who it is !?!? (*^w^*) this style was requested over a year ago, so it's long over due to make it huh? anyways since my hair is long enough to do it, id figure i might as well do it before i go home for 4 days.,.,of no internet!!! WAHHH!!! but then my camera's battery died when i was almost finished,.,.so now im waiting for the battery to recharge and finish this tutorial lol. i just needed like.,.,,.5 more minutes to make it look nice ya know!?!?! i need to figure out what kind of music to put to this video since i dont have any of their music,..,sad i know right?? anyways i hope people will like this videos!! i even attempted to do his make-up which is an epic fail in my books,..,i suck at applying make-up.,.,.for reals!!!

DONE COMPLETE FINISH!!!!!!!

i finally finished that huge painting today! ah it felt so good.,,.and when i made my friend hold it up it just looked so,.,.,.,.wonderful XD. i was in aw that i painted it! seriously i have improved A LOT in my painting skillz dahaha looks like i didnt do it but someone else did, i guess im still in shock that i did it \(^o^)/ too bad that the person who wanted me to paint it being a big dick about it and wont make any deal about the price on it,.,.,.sadly hes older than me, but is being a big baby. (=_=) now i have to drive up north with this big ass painting just to show it to him to reach SOME agreement on the price. dammmmnn but now i can say that the joker was in the back seat of my car hahah! i also started crocheting my scarf,.,.,.its going to take forever to finish it, but it will give me something to do during the time i spend back home with my family (because they have no internet and i have nothing left at my parents home so i just sit around doing nothing lol) hope everyone is having a good time during their breaks and i hope to make a couple hair tutorials for you in january~!!

Scarf making time

my friend taught me how to crochet because i was watching her make a huge blanket. so i learned how to make the basic stitch and started a scarf to see if i did it right lol. she said i picked it up fast and was doing it right. now i want to make a huge scarf like ren has in nana XD. i want it white and some design on it (*w*),.,.,.oh god im so lame to think that XDD...,.,thats what i want to be doing over xmas eve/day lol i find it really relaxing but it really hurts my hands (T-T). my hands are not in the greatest of shape to do something that intensive in a long amount of time. and so fun!! she even gave me this hat she made too XP her sister said i look like stoner with it on buwahah

(@~@)

i sure do complain a lot on this blog,..,i should make this a more positive blog that ppl will enjoy reading huh?? (someone asked me to do an 'emo' hairstyle ,..,,.never worn soo much black eyeliner underneath my eyes in ages!)

Problem Problem Problem

i was texting the guy who wanted me to do this painting today. texting you ask? yea i know so unprofessional right? but thats how he got in contact with me. anyways i was showing him how far i have gotten on the piece and told him that i roughly wanted $500 for it. he spat out that it was way too much. first off how do ppl expect artists to live on their art work if they dont make some profit for it. if he was expecting $100 for it then i would only make a $10 profit just off the art supplies and thats not including any labor into it. i know a lot of fine arts ppl and i already talked to them about paintings and shiz since they mostly do that kind of stuff and i told them $200 was my original price and they said that i was selling it for really cheap and selling myself short,.,.,..,uh ok?? and they basically work two jobs and on commissions to make ends meet. if their galleries are a bust then they are out in a lot of money. i even talked to my roommate who is a fine arts major and showed her everything and how much everything cost and she that just the size alone would be $200-300 easy, then the labor put into it. (and thats basically what they all said to me too when i explained what i had to do) i never worked on a big piece like this,.,.,,.and i really hate painting,.,..,i know how to charge for making clothes easily since thats what i do now, but painting at this scale i dunno? i dont want to continue to waste my time if i cant sell this damn thing.,.,.,its about half way done.,,.,.just the lips and little details need to be added and it will be done. i dont want to sell myself short nor do i want to lose my customer and im working really hard on this painting (even though i basically bitch and complain the whole time i do it,..,,.painting is not my thing) the only reason im making it the best i can make it so if someone sees that painting and ask who had done it.,,.then my name will get out there,..,.,sadly for painting not clothing (T-T) ahhhhh either way im putting away the brushes until he answers me back what his pricing would be,.,..,i would settle for $350.,,.,.but i do have bills to pay food that needs to be bought.,.,., (why i always end up going friends houses so i can eat a nice meal there) XDD

Fail

i wanted to practice styling my hair for some up coming videos and it was a total fail (*-*) its been so long since i spiked up my hair. and just recently (like 5 days ago) i went out to get my hair thinned out and trimmed. sadly the lady blunt cut my layers and touched my bangs when i stated do not touch the bangs, ill clean them up on my own. HOE, no tip for her.,.,,XDD i kid, but she only charged me $10 so i was happy i saved like $5. anyways my layers are getting to long (=_=) but i dont want to cut it because i want to prove to a lot of ppl that i can stop cutting my hair! so i need to hurry and do a lot of those tutorials that ppl have requested (*~*) in other news the painting is going pretty well. there's a lot more i need to do , but i cant sit on my ass for hours while painting that huge canvas on the floor (=_=) either way it will get done soon! hopefully by the end of this week and then i can collect my money ($ w $)!! then i can start making everyones xmas gifts <33 ok its not rush hour now..,i should go get food and continue to work on that painting.,.,,.and styling my hair XD

Mocking Me

since break i started working on my first commission this break. its a painting of the joker. so far,.,.im only that far XD,.,.and ive only been working on it for two days. sadly i dont think i can finish it this week ,,,..,i feel so frustrated with it only because i hate HATE painting, but its the thought of money in my bank that makes me continue with it. oh joker why must your face be sooo detailed (*_*) mind you this painting is decently big (3ft x 3ft)

5th semester complete

yay im done!! today wasnt that bad and i slept in the tv room after my psychology test until my illustration class. it was the best sleep ever until this girl was laughing so loud it woke my ass up,.,.,.(=_=)^ anyways im done and ready to sleep, go out, sleep, eat, and work on my commissions to make some money (*^^*)b also my friend ordered me a vivienne westwood armor ring (its not authentic i believe) and it came in the mail today.,,..,i was so surprised because i didnt know she ordered it for me since i only talked about it and such thank you sooooo much <3333 a perfect way to end the semester~

*twitch*

for the past two days i have only slept a total of 7 hours,.,.im sure it would be like 20-30 minutes more since i dozed off during those long ass critiques lol but honestly this is the first time i have done this in the 3 year career of attending my college,..,.,i dont know how ppl do it.,.,lack of sleep (*-*) is sooo.,.,i dunno (@~@) i feel nauseous, sick, eyes wanting to pop out, tired tired little person tomorrow is my last day and i cannot wait to come home after illustration and sllllllllleeeeppp all wednesday evening and thursday morning/afternoon,..,.,you have no idea (=_=) i was debating whether or not to cook myself a real meal that doesnt consist of cheap lunchables.,,.yes,.,..,ive been eating those,.,.,.all of last week and this week,..,,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,,i really like the ham and cheddar combination XDD,..,,.,..,,.or to shower/eat..,.,or just crash and forget everything so far sleeping sounds sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good right now hahhaha,.,..,the only thing keeping me alive are those icy showers i take to wake me up XDD now to study for psychology!!!! good luck to everyone else who are taking finals or soon to go into finals week~~~

3 more days!

im in love with this man here, sujk from deluhi <33 XD, ive notice i have taking a liking to a lot of the drummers of each band puwahahhahah i finally fixed my Lacie (my external hard drive) i about lost it when it died on me (*-*), years of projects, papers, pictures, random stuff on there was lost for only a couple of days. Im glad to have it back <3>,<), i took some time on friday night to clean my apartment but not my room, only because it took forever to clean everything and next thing i knew it was already 12am,.,..,and plus having some friends randomly come over didnt help either. in my defense they needed someone to talk to all friday night/saturday morning i attempted to homework, then all day saturday i did homework and all day today i do homework and study for my exam tomorrow. i have to go in early to take it since this one girl i have class with in anatomy and psychology says that its stupid to have two final exams on the same day (we have psychology and then right after anatomy) so she convinced our anatomy teacher to let us take the exam earlier. im not complaining, but i did kind get dragged into the situation. so i have all final projects due each day (mon-wed then im done hahahah) and exams each day i hope i do well on all my exams (*-*) i was also offered like,..,,.3 commission just in december,.,.,.there goes my break (T^T), but i could use,,.actually need the money XDD,.,.,art is too expensive guys!!! ANYWAYS,.,.,.,.that's it,,..,i slept in today, i had no morning but it was such a nice sleep.,.,i want to sleep for until next semester starts when i get off from class. (^^;) im so exhausted i need more sleep (=_=)

Cherry Kisses

i finished one out of three projects and still need to study for three exams i cannot wait till these next two weeks are over with!!! anyways i made this dress for draping class. it was fun, hard work and i call it cherry kisses. it's really cute and i made my mom wear it XD, she fits perfectly in it, except the bust. i thought to myself, damn i need to weigh 100 pounds to fit in this (*-*) anyways i kinda want to sell it since this isnt my style, but this is my design that i made for class that i really love. it's so cute!! but i cant fit in it (T-T),.,.,.maybe i should start losing weight so i can at least wear it once lol this is totally out of my norm for designing clothes, but i made it up with my pattern final. i made a pair of pants like these, but a different kind of material since i couldnt find what looks like the right kind of fabric. i didnt put any pockets on it just yet and im still debating whether to put them on or not.hopefully it turns out alright in the end! i only have one more week to work on it~~~

i'm always the girl with the multicolored hair. everyone was disappointed on how,..,,.normal i looked at my friends birthday party back home. i told them just a couple years looking normal com'on guys!! their response,,..,.,no.,.,i ,.,.i cant see you looking that normal *sigh* my plan of action for the next year is to let my hair go,.,.,.let it become long like i once had in middle school .,,.god has it been that long since i had hair past my shoulders!?! then hopefully get it colored like waka's hair from danger gang XDD simple, not a lot of touch ups that needs to happen and i think i can manage the coloring lol towards the end of summer break ill get it colored professionally and hopefully by that time my hair will be looooong,..,.,or just long in general buwahahah!

Lack of Sleep Makes You Feel Awesome!

ah i hate feeling like shiiiit. woke up this morning all blargh (=_=). im not sick or anything. i think my body has caught up with me and is too exhausted to go on. 3 more weeks! that's all im asking for and then you can take a month off relaxing (T~T),.,.,.break needs to come faster!! this is the first year that ive worked soo hard for all my classes. i dont wanna go into senior year (X-X).,,.,.,.i should sleep, but first is my 5 page paper for anatomy, due friday at 12:30pm.,,.,.i can do this!!! (>.<)O .,.,has anyone else notice all the christmas decorations everywhere?? even on television??? ,..,,.thanksgiving is the forgotten holiday for marketing lol

Grow up please <3

i'm sorry but i can't stand talking to some individuals who cant comprehend the fact that college is more difficult that high school or middle school, that college students dont have that much free time to go out and do absolutely nothing and the fact that our projects takes weeks!!! to finish properly. because you can tell when something was made up the night before.,.,,just sloppy as fuck and no love in it rawr!! why do i talk to these people?? 6 years younger than me??? who think that they will marry their damn bf's when they turn 18 and love each other forever and ever imbeciles, immature idiots,.,.,.,. go through puberty and reach my age and then we can talk~~ *sigh* i feel better now

i cant write this paper, it's too hard. not even a page (no double space mind you) and im already tearing up. i need an interesting life so i can write about something else (^^;) but this five page paper is due on wednesday at 11am, need to get it done tonight!

in my psychology class we have to write a paper about ourselves and an experience that has influenced us in a negative/positive or even both.,,.ways. i thought of doing various things, but i found that i can't type up so many pages on that even in my life,,.sadly (^^;).,,.., then i thought about my parents divorce.,.,,.8 years ago i believe? it was on xmas eve when it was decided. i was trying to recall everything that had happened and how it effected my life,.,.,.and when i started to think about it just randomly.,,..,my eyes were full of tears.,.,and they kept pouring out. i didnt realize how much i was effected by it.,,.by just remembering some things from those nights and every night that followed until i moved out on my own. it's weird,.,.well i think it is (^^;),.,.,.i guess i kept all those emotions bottled up from everyone else since none of my friends had divorce parents at the time i was in elementary/middle/ or even high school.,.,.,., my god.,.,.,elementary school was when it happened.,.,i forgot about that,.,., i still find it weird,.,.there was no one to blame.,,.and i still have wonderful relationships with both my parents, so after i blotted up my tears i asked,.,.why am i crying like this?? im thinking about writing a different event in my life or else my laptop will fry from all these random tears that are coming out.,.,.,but the paper is due in a couple days.,.,., such a pitiful girl i am