I give myself some credit

but if my instructors saw how i constructed this, they would so fail me XD.,.XC but i give myself credit for now being a second year in fashion. granted i learned some stuff in class, but not everything and then having a horrible instructor for one semester and playing catch up second semester with a different hardcore pattern making instructor still hasn't taught me everything. i say these little outfits gives me practice in how to figure out everything. i think i will do ok in draping because i hate making patterns lol!! ah i think it took me four days to make this outfit, nonstop i might add. though i didn't line the jacket since i didn't have any extra light weight fabric which really makes the jacket look like it was half ass ya know? owell im kinda happy in how it turned out. i hope this year i will learn a lot more and can remake this again <3

Just another entry

before and after rawr shitty webcam photo! but i went and did shou's makeup and put on the outfit i made for the gradation pv. only thing that's different is the contact. i don't have blue lenses, just green. i stopped making the outfit im working on now because i got so frustrated. also,..,i realized that i only have 3 weeks left of break!!! (T-T) then back to class.,.,damn i want more time.,,..,

Next

i started to make another outfit, because of how unsatisfied i am about the last one i did. so i'm making shou's outfit again, but this time it's this version. i really loved the VK days where they dressed like this. now they seem street oriented. i'm really taking my time on this outfit for sure and plus my central air went out and it's just sooooo hot in my place. today i just made the leggings, shorts, and the velvet arm warmer with the gold chain. i changed one thing on the leggings and its the spandex of gray with black spots. instead i made it purple with tiny black spots. just my alteration that everyone will probably throw a fit. "horrible cosplay, cant match the leggings at all!" XDD but truely i looked and searched and failed lol. anyways lately i watched some of my old videos and i miss my black hair, it just looked so healthy and pretty~ XD. but i told myself that i wouldnt dye my hair black again. *sigh* i want to get this orange tone out of my hair soon, it's really bothersome to me lol. but it kinda matches shou's hair color so there ya go. maybe in september ill go with another hair color or something lol~ that's all i wanted to say (*^^*)y

Finished

i finished the outfit within 24 hours and that included hanging out with friends and eating pancakes lol. i feel as though my craftsmanship is really sloppy when making this particular garment, but it looks ok to me?? i know there's a white belt thing that goes over the torso, but i forgot to put it on when i took the pictures. i will probably keep altering the outfit here and there to make it look better, but for now im done XD. yay for new outfit! this is what ill be wearing to matsuricon <3 i hope i make a decent shou (^///^)

First Day

i basically made the shorts, tops, hat, the thingy that goes around the waist, and im currently working on the legs and arms. a lot accomplished and i think this outfit is way easier than bou's outfit

Hold On, New Idea

i've decided to hold off on Waka's and Juri's outfit and instead make Shou's outfit from the pv gradation. after looking at his outfit and other cosplayers (it's just so hard to see the outfit in the video) it seems pretty simple and not as time consuming as Bou's was (his took 4 days none stop) i decided to make this outfit, since i cant cosplay as bou no longer since no one is able to order a wig for me off of ebay XD and also the fact that my friends thought my hair resembles shou's a lot. i like to thank natalie for giving me this idea! im really stoked to make this outfit~ i even went out and bought the fabric that i needed, which wasn't a lot thankfully (since someone donated a lot of black fabric to me, thank you!!!<3333) so i only spent $50 for fabric and elastic XD! finally something exciting for me to make! XD the only thing im a little iffy on is the shorts, since no one has taught me how to properly make shorts and i refuse to buy a pair!! .,.,maybe one day is dedicated to figuring out how to construct shorts XD

Hair Hair Hair

i really like this style of hair. it makes me want to do my hair like this everyday when i go out XD! but as of late, my body feels so exhausted that i hardly leave my room. *sigh* as of late i've been reading and writing, nothing more. i finally answered all the questions that people have asked me. that in itself made me feel accomplished XD~ ,..,.,that is all..,.,,..,

In The Mood

i decided to make another video because i had a lot of free time today! this time it's aoi from ayabie~ from the pv cubic L/R ock .,.,.,i find these type of hair styles really easy and cute <3 i might have to make this my regular style XDD also! i made the hat thingy myself as well~ it only took me 30 minutes, but i kind want one made out of wool XP i hope you enjoy it!

*SIGH*

this is a picture from where i used to live, before i moved to the city,,.,i truely miss that place when i went out with one of my friends and we took the bus to go down high st. well the bus was kinda full and we couldn't sit near each other. anyways the person sitting next to my friend moved, and she was telling me to move back. well this big,HUGE, black guy that was being a dick since we got on, sat purposely in that seat and told me to "sit your chink ass down, you ain't getting this seat". it kinda pissed me off for one, im not chinese and second.,,.seriously? why is ok for you to say chink and for me not to say the 'n' word? i seriously held my tongue because i realized i would probably get my ass kicked if i said anything since the majority of the bus was of black people. but when i was leaving my friends house and got in my car, this random black guy came up to my car and i wasn't in the mood, so i motioned to my mouth like i can't speak english (i know,..,lame, but i do get away with it XD) and he was like (well i barely heard the guy since my windows were up) "no i dont want a smoke" and then i kept motioning to my face and shaking my head.,.,and then he called me fucking ugly .,,..,hahah! i thought it was funny, but still so rude that was my day, how was yours?

New Video Being Posted

ah i made another hair tutorial! for this video i attempted Maya's hair from LM. C go check it out!! i enjoyed dressing up and doing his hair, it was fun~ i hope you enjoy it (*^^*) i feel like i should go out with this hairstyle now hahah~ i think it looks lovely buwahah

LM. C hairstyle video coming soon~

i'm still working on byou's hair style, but for now i'm attempting maya's hairstyle from LM. C. i'm not quite sure if the person wanted me to do his hair or aiji's hair. they never specified after i asked (=_=).,,.comon ppl!!! work with me XDD anyways, my hair is definitely too long, but i plan on working with the length to make his hair. i just really like the visor i bought for this lol~ and the makeup was fun to do, but too much black .,.,even for me! look for it! hopefully it will get posted this weekend <33

I want to sleep, but i cant

Have you ever found someone you really, really, really liked? i did, but that personality yo What can you say about the first person on your top? (this is from myspace XD) she's so cool, i truely miss her (T-T) What about the second on your top? friend from columbus, she can be annoying, but what the hell lol Last person you gave a hug to (not family)? .,.,.,.lauren or carly?.,, How are you feeling? like a fatty XD i ate too much Do you think anyone stalks you? welllll,..,.,.,.,, Have you seen anyone you knew and purposely avoided them? yes!,.,.well not really, no eye contact haha Do you say sorry first? more than likely since the other person always avoid me,.,.im not a fighter! Will tomorrow be better than today? maybe? When is the next time you'll see the second person on your top? hopefully tomorrow, but we'll see What music annoys you the most? country .,.,,.,.,.rawr! Are your friends older or younger then you? a mix Are you sober? yes~ How many people do you trust? few Do you curse in front of your parents? yes~ Expecting something to change in the next month? hopefully *fingers cross* Where did you get the shirt you're wearing? umm.,.it was a gift XD Name something you did yesterday? nothing,.,i sat,,.i ate,.,.i sat more XD Do you miss someone? eh sometimes lol Will you be up before 7am tomorrow? noooo (>.<) Do you think somebody's in love with you? i dont know,.,.,. Is it easy to make you cry? depends on the situation ya know? Have you told anybody you loved them today? nope Do you care what people think of you? not really,..,.,i only care how i perceive myself How is your love life going? there is no love life yo~ Its 3 in the morning and you get a text, who is it? that was michael lol.,,.damn him What do you really want right now? money ($w$) Do you have any locked messeges in your inbox? i think like one or two? How is your hair? it's in the process of healing XD Are you wearing makeup? nope Can you really say that you're okay right now? nah Do you know the last person you were in a car with other than family? lauren i think? Were you up at 11pm last night? yes What was the weather like today? i dunno,..,i was a couch potato today Do you hate the last boy you were talking to? no,.,.he's my good friend Has anyone upset you in the last week? sorta When was the last time you kissed someone? ?? Are you happy right now? im..,.,ok Was this last friday night enjoyable for you? it was relaxing,.,.until i went to the bar and got hit on by some random woman,.,.,.seriously Do you have a reason to smile right now? nope Think back five months ago, were you single? yes duh lol What's more important to you, good grades or having fun? grades are ranked higher for me lol Have you ever given up on someone but then went back to them? no Are you a couple with the last person you kissed on the lips? no.,,.,wtf Looking back, did you ever think you would be where you’re at in life now? haha no,,.go figure Do you regret anything you’ve done in the past three days? nope Do you love the last person you texted? no. What were you doing at 8 this morning? umm.,,.trying to go back to sleep Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? darren? What sweatshirt did you wear last? oh geez,,...,i dont think i wore any,.,. Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? wtf is with these!.,,.this must be a couple quiz!!! Have you ever walked on the beach at night? no (=-=) Are you keeping a big secret right now? no. I dare you to detail why you first kissed the last person you kissed? ,.,.again wtf! Do you believe what goes around comes around? sometimes Who was the last person in a car with you? didn't..,,.i..,,.just,.,.answer this? lauren What does your last text message say? "ew. even from me" How are you? fat How many piercings do you have? 12 Have you ever kissed the last person you texted? on the cheek What's the 1st thing you do when you're mad? walk away.,,.done

Cheap Salons

these are filipino eggrolls,,.,.,for my bias opinion ,.,.they're the best eggrolls around~ anyways i went to a cheap hair salon to get my hair trim.,,.,.honestly i'm not spending $25 for a trim ya know? so i went to get it done and told the stylist how i want it and what to do and everything.,,.,.she did absolutely nothing that i told her! and she ripped out one of my piercings while she was combing my hair (=_=),..,,.only thing i can say is.,,.,she got rid of the fried ends.,.,congratulations august i want to go to Lucky 13, get my hair bleached and properly cut~~~.,,.ah i wait for that month~!

Happy Late 4th of July

when i was at the bar to check out a new band.,,.i got hit on by some woman.,,.i thought to myself after she went away.,,."do i look like a lesbian? or do i just have it written on my forehead and haven't read it yet?" this isn't the first time that this has happened lol but now that i want to get a hair cut.,,.i'm rethinking it hahah,..,,.,.whatever

Next Outfit Shall Be

Juri's from Deluhi~ I'm in love with this band <3,..,.,.,i want to cosplay as him for the upcoming convention.,.,i hope i can go to it!

It was called Comfest

i went to comfest after work today and it was soo boring (=_=) ing was all for it and didnt care what happens as long as she goes,.,,.shes a hypocrite and wanted me to drive, but seriously? am i just a fucking taxi to you? anyways.,.,boring i walked in the heat and sat and walked more lauren and i decided to leave and we did and walked downtown in the lovely city, ate at subway, went to a park where don was at sketching, and then went swimming in her pool till it closed hahah~ some random guy at a stand told me 'happy comfest' and gave me two flowers (^////^) so i took them and ing got pissed that she didnt get any and had don take one of mine and gave it to her.,.,where she later smashed it in her sketchbook. i was sad,..,,.,.but it was just a flower~ sometimes i wish i could stop being friends to such people that piss me off by how they act. dont you have one of those ppl in your life that you cant just stop going to in the end?? oh do you see? my hair is no longer blue, now it is just brown!

Coming Soon

im excited to attempt to do his hair next! it's byou from screw!.,.,although i have already did a hair tutorial, i quickly deleted it. i want to make a better version, really! (>,<) so it's been awhile since i played with my hair~ i need to get a hair curler for this one, and i get to put in my extensions! fun~ im getting my hair done soon, so exciting (^^)y professionally of course. it has been a long time since i went to a hair dresser to get my hair colored, im kinda nervous (^^;) wait for my new video! i plan on it to be posted in july lol. thank you for making requests! keep them coming~

Feelings~

have you ever had that feeling when you are around someone and some how you cant help but smile? but still you find it weird since the last time you actually fully talked to that person was two years ago and yet when you first cross paths you couldnt help but talk to each other. and then your feelings take over~ i had that today.,.,and people notice how wide my smile had gotten when talking to him.,,. am i that obvious? and same with him apparently, we both seem to fancy one another, but i dont believe what others say since i dont see it. good friends again? work was actually fun and eventful i want to work with don and ken again!

Im a Smurf

this is only temporary .,., until sometime in july i will professionally get it bleached~ and become a blonde XD

Almost there

this is my second time i bleached my hair and now its that ugly neon orange color (its horrid looking) but im going to wait until july-ish to dye my hair again. i think i want to go to a professional for the last time to dye my hair the ends on the sides are totally fried so i went ahead and trimmed them off and it looks horrid with having them short (i personally like long long sides so even a bit short i find them ugly),.,but it will grow out ya know? no worries, not like its chopped all the way up to the top of my ears or something XDD .,.,.,(>.>) hopefully my hair will be in the right condition come august (*^^*)/

Im tired, so i update

ah a dress, the first one ive worn in a VERY long time (@_@).,.,only because i didnt finish my laundry XDD ive been volunteering at my school as of late and it is very boring (=_=) i sit around all day, then do very little work. my boss is a racist sexist ass, but still lovable in a way??? he already gave me 40 hours of volunteering and its only been a couple days.,.,he told me i can leave whenever and dont have to show up if i want until next week when i give him a new form.,.,crazy, but very nice of him the only thing that bothers me are the student workers.,.,everyone complains how horrible my school is but youre still attending it. the worst is the fact that even they dont care, they care less about repairing the rooms.,decently (=_=).,.,.,,. i should complain much right? even though i feel like i should just slack since im not getting paid, but the fact that its for my scholarship i stay loyal to actually do the work ya know?? owell .,.,thats what has been going on for me as of late~ im currently bleaching my hair (*^^*), though i still wont be blonde until a couple more times (i should go to a professional)

Useless ranting

sometimes i wonder about myself ya know?.,,.so i always hang out with this one girl,.,sometimes she's ok, but when she's wrong or doesn't know she gets all pissy, same with being hungry or tired. she's also more needy than a dog as well.,.,its like im in a relationship with her when she asks me about how she looks or what she should wear or how good she looks. i honestly dont care about neither and always respond with whatever you feel comfortable in, that seems like the right thing to say, but she'll get mad. she also takes FOREVER to get ready, not that i dont, we all do dont we ladies? but i give her a whole extra hour to get ready plus driving to her place takes me awhile as well, still not ready, and i like to go when i want to go, no waiting. but then she'll be like do my make up or hair and i tell her that she needs practice and do it herself and then she'll drop the whole thing, lazy . also she wants to lose weight and i say whats on my mind right then and there, like you dont need that or you shouldnt eat that, but whatever. so she gets her mom to buy her really greasy unhealthy stuff and complains shes fat. now i eat a lot of unhealthy things and i know it, but i dont gain any weight either, i just need to lose a lot XD. anyways, i dont know.,,.i shouldnt write this stuff here, but i feel like i need to at least get it out of my system? if only you knew how much she can piss me off by how she thinks or acts then you would be too.,.,.,.,.*sigh* i should stop now (*-*) anyways i start volunteering tomorrow so i can get my 80 hours in before i graduate and hopefully start working as well~ pet land hire my ass!!! (T_T) i also want to dye my hair again.,.,maybe tomorrow?

New Video

i decided to make a new video since the weather was nice enough that i wasn't sweating a whole lot when making it. but then in the end it was still hot (*-*) ah i need to bleach my hair again soon, the color faded and became orange /(>,<)\.,.,., please watch!!!

Brown Hair

i forgot that i have been dying my hair for a bit and i got it to a reddish brown color~ it looks kinda blonde/brown in this picture (^^;) soon it will be blonde!.,,.but not for awhile~

Bou Cosplay Part 2

i finally finished the whole outfit! because my friend forgot to call me to go to the gym, it gave me the opportunity to go ahead and finish the undershirt XD im very proud of myself for my first cosplay (*^^*) all that's left is bleaching my hair haha~ i want to make waka's outfit, from danger gang, next!! but until i get funds again, i think ill have to put that idea on the back burner (=_=)

Cosplay part 1

i've been making bou's outfit for the past couple days.,.,im quite proud in how much i have accomplished and how well everything is made.,.,,.im taking a break from sewing and such (^^;) all thats left is the undershirt and to bleach my hair hahah~ the vest is kinda boxy, thats how i saw it in pictures lol, doesnt work well with my hips (^////^) i need to lose like.,.,568413468954132 pounds!! DX

Asian Festival

ah there was an asian festival today~! i went there and my feet are killing me now (T-T) i walked around in the hot sun for a long time, but it was worth it when i found the stand for filipino cuisine~ <333 i havent had egg rolls or noni on a stick in a VERY long time.,.,i squealed like a little girl dahahah~~

Piss Off

im so annoyed right now, no im so pissed right now when you make plans then you stick with them, i have the patience to wait in a store for you for 2 hours, i have the patience to stay in the area and go out and eat alone for an hour, but if something happens.,.,., FUCKING CALL ME!!!! you know what i mean? people who say they will be there and then calls after 4 hours when youre suppose to meet up expect you to still be there and youre not and theyre piss!?! the sad thing is they only want me to be there so they can freaking bum a ride off of me.,., FUCK YOU!!! im TIRED of being USED!!!!!!!

To The End

ah i made another video!! it's sad but i only have two more to do and then im done.,.,i dont know if i should be happy or not? to continue on with youtube or not??? make requests please!!! (*^^*)m i want to remake a few and make them look better, but will people watch it?? owell i didnt realize that my hair has grown so much!! .,.,though i need a trim.,.,., hmm.,.,its alread 3 in the morning.,.,i should wash out my hair from all the hairspray XDD

Over!

ah summer months are here! i celebrated my birthday a couple times while eating a lot of cake that some of my friends made..,.,sugar intake = outrageous!! i got my second commission~~ so exciting.,.,though i have to paint (T-T) hopefully it will only take me a week to do (*_*) i dont want to spend too much time/money on it for now.,.,im totally broke!! but now i have time to make stuff and everything.,.,., i really need a job.,.,im going to go job hunting after i finish cleaning my whole place!.,.,hongjie left to go back to china and he left me a massive mess to clean up ..,.,lazy bastard..,.,.,whole day cleaning!!!

Last One!

ah one last final! then after that freedom! this was in my retail class.,.,we had to do presentation and i went second for some reason when i get up to present i tend to be VERY energetic and talk fast XDD the class lasted until almost 10pm (*-*) ah so tired.,., i finished my last final today! its a skirt.,.its very cute~! i will take pictures of it once i finish the seams (*^^*) ah this entry is so broken.,.,soorrrryyyy (>,<) birthday this weekend!! lets party~!

Last Week

even though its my last week, i still have a lot of sewing, drawing, typing, and presenting to do (T-T) only two of my 10 classes will end early (T-T),.,.,and sadly i still have to wake up early *cries some more* damn evaluation papers! actually right now i should be typing up my philosophy paper.,.,it seems opinion based, but still i dont want to write about whether or not God does exist .,., i dont want to get into it, but six pages need to be printed off before tuesday at 11oclock! ,.,im striving to finish it tonight so i can print it off tomorrow at school where i have to meet up with mike to finish one project (>,<) and then take pictures.,., come sunday i get to help shirley weng move her stuff to my place and maybe attending someones graduation? then weekend! MY BIRTHDAY!!!.,.,.,im actually not going to do anything.,.,.,im pathetic i know,.,,.,but in celebration im going to sleep all day!!!

Kitty Katt

I miss my dog katt, i went home real quick, ok like a two hour drive, to drop off my car at the shop and went to visit her ahhh my dogggggyyy (T-T) two more weeks and i can spend some time with you apparently when i left she kept whining that my dad had to leave.,.,.,that breaks my heart (T-T)

Groucho Bunny

this is my bunny groucho XD shell be a year during the summer months~ i remember when she use to be so tiny and friendly now shes all grumpy and doesnt like to be held (T-T) .,., XD <3 ah four more weeks of classes!!! ahahah!~ i cant wait to turn in ALL my projects.,.,to get rid of this heavy weight of doing those projects for weeks (=_=) ill be making a really cute skirt for my construction class, i got the pattern (since we have to use a pattern) from the gothic lolita bible book/magazine lol.,. ah i got lost today since there was an accident and i had to take a different way home, and im still not use to living in the city so after an hour of driving i made it home XDD what a waste of gas (>.<)

Refreshing

i've been trying to take care of my skin as of late and i've been using this face mask as of late. It feels wonderful and smells great XD the plus side to this product is that it's easy to apply and not messy! it was cheap to buy but i can still feel the affects after taking it off lol~ ah friday is tomorrow!!

Rain

such horrible weather as of late! (>,<) yesterday my class was canceled so i stayed home all day and did homework XDD now i sit in the cafe area and wait for my next class to start today, no ones out and i found no one to talk to, so instead i sketched in my book and get on the internet hahah~ i spent all last night working on my illustration and im really happy with the quality, but once i put color on it, i destroy it (kick self).,.,., also when i was walking to the cafe, with my hood up , i over heard the guy i walked by asked his friend if i was a woman (@-@).,.,ahhh comon!!

Trashy Ballerina

it took me about 7 hours to make this materials used : plastic trash bags, pop can tops, used ribbon, off white fabric this is for one of my classes and i had an interesting time making this.,.,i had to go back from square one a couple times due to materials and how everything worked together~ i find it cute, but i wanted the entire top to made of those pop can tops, but since i dont drink pop, i only had so many from digging around for them (^^;) my left hand has been stabbed, cut, sliced, and worked to the bone for this one.,.,.,but nothing but a few hundred bandaids cant help XDD

Fatty Fat

ah i had class yesterday from 11-6:20pm with no breaks,.,.,i was soo hungry!! (>.<) so when i got outta class i went and bought fake chinese food hahah i made a plate of rice, sweet sour chicken, lo mein noodles with shrimp, peanut M&M's, and a couple ice cream sandwiches ahh it was wonderful and i was still hungry but i stopped eating hahaha XDD my friend got mad from how much i ate in one sitting and still kept eating lol she told me that she hates me for being able to eat all that junk and not gain any weight (^^;) .,.,i could lose some weight though hahaha.,.,.,

Mannequin Love

ah this is the result of spending .,.,uh 45 minutes dressing these mannequins with purple fabric, pins,tap,staples and whatever else was in our box of random items. i did the last one (the shorted with all the ruffles) with my partner who did the skirt.,.,you cant really see is since its all purple hahah~ it was kinda intense, but i thought it was fun (*^^*)

Hair Hair Hair

i put my extensions in my hair.,.,, its been so long since ive seen myself with long hair haha i kinda like it.,.,(^//////^)

No End

only 6? more weeks of classes! but i feel that there is no end in sight (;_;).,.,.,so much needs to be done, but i have no motivation to do anything~ .,.,.,so lazy.,.,., i skipped philosophy class today to take pictures on campus of random people who i thought had nice outfits.,.,i felt weird asking them if i could take their picture.,.,only one person asked what it was for and was interested in my project XDD and she was in the same major as i lol~ ahh my cat doesnt like to hold still.,.,lately ive been purchasing clothes with prints on them.,.,mostly animal prints XD

Yes

ah scheduling complete!! what a rush~ my hands were shaking just typing in the course numbers XDD!! but i got all my classes and have a lovely schedule!!! tuesday and wednesday i have three classes but have thursday off and get out early on friday nice!!! now back to work~

Scheduling rush

this is my first time signing up for classes online.,.,ahhh i find it stressful waiting for the clock to strike 12am (*-*) i hope i get all the classes i want, so i dont have to be on campus till 930pm (X-X) ahhh midnight hurry up!!

Hair Hair

i sit here in an empty classroom with ing browsing the internet for new hair ideas i want to grow out my hair this time and see how i would look with natural long hair.,.,pull off a princess look perhaps?? with assorted colors to go with the new look no more spiking the hair (^^;) by the time my hair gets as long as i want it, it will be January of next year (*-*).,.,.,

Jungle to Jungle

two of my three classes got canceled today so i went to a small little jungle gym by ing's house and played on it it brought back memories and i really enjoyed climbing up on the gym and sliding down the slide XDDD i want to go back again!

Tick Tock

i like getting out of class early but then i get bored waiting for my next class to start (=-=) and i find no one to talk to, since everyone else is still in their class.,.,.,so i sit on the third floor looking outside the window waiting for my next class to start.,.,in 40 minutes.,.,., ah the picture doesnt make it look like im high up, but i really am (^^;) such a nice day out, but i stay inside doing projects or in class doing more projects summer where are you!?